Pain and the hearts

This stream of water that flows in my bathroom, reminding me of the drowning feeling

 I have now is this social media post, that regardless of everything you were worth it 

This great pain in my heart, a reminder of how my heart yearned for you 

How badly I wanted you, to have and to hold!!

Do I loathe how I met you, in the most inconvenient of ways?

 Yet sprung a love of great deluxe, that blossomed into butterflies in my stomach

 I bored you, what you said in a frenzy of truthfulness 

Would you understand if I said was walking on eggs the whole time?

 To say you needed my character change, to bring out the fun

Which I obliged but alas, you couldn’t handle the darkness

 That fills my soul in reserve, which engulfs my silhouette

You wouldn’t listen; I was protecting you hiding the darkness 

 My heart still yearns for you, in the darkest and loneliest of hours.

 I said I would always love you, and love you I will till the end of time 

I am staring at the last picture I have of you, as a thick stingy tear rolls down my left cheek

Your big round foxy eyes staring back at my overwhelmed and shook person 

 The realization that I will never have you, but just as a flower blooms in darkness

 I won’t be afraid, for my subconscious is mine and mine only and it reigns supreme

Why did you forsake me, yet you claimed you loved me more than I would ever imagine??

I need to know, for the pain in my chest to stop

I see a picture of a headlight of a car illuminating a dark windy chilly night

With that I know you will come home, I will embrace you with open arms

 I  shall collect the chimmy broken pieces of my heart as they cut through my fingers